All - I don't have much time right now, but will reply to your posts after reading them at work today - in LA now -
Here are ideas from brainstorming at 3am today, in no particular order: take another DB coaching session try Bettermen coaching, after reading NUTS again, run 9 miles on weekends, so that French friend and I can do this together, as he offered to last weekend. Talk to this friend - start by email? This month's Outside magazine has 'lifehacking' ideas How to be a good dad at a distance to daughter? show PMA in any case! The morning I left, I put in a storm window, because I thought it was good (warmer house!), and even though daughter said 'you should ask ma about that' don't ask for permission any longer, no more 'ma will know' or 'ma knows best' contact my favorite cousin, with whom I had a falling out contact W or not while I am gone? do not pursue. Must ask/tell her about wanting to take kids on New Year's trip, even if she does not want to come. Should book trip soon. Do ice rappeling, ice boating, talk to my Lebanese barber about any Arab drummers he may know, no one makes your dreams happen for you. Invite lunch club to hike on weekend after 1st meeting - everyone can walk! Beautiful torches at night in snow in Japanese movie Vibrator - something for us ? Help wife renovate? That which I choose, not that which she tells me. We have a door that needs work, for example. Is this honoring my W and myself? PMA - even though it bugs W. Not teflon happiness however. Validate her pain? More than I am sorry about how she feels? I am responsible for my happiness. Get therapy (EE leader, maybe?) to help break behavior patterns. Say good night and good morning every day. I am worried not seeing daughter in the evenings - she has a long commute each way to Stockholm and has been speaking about getting a room/apartment there. New jeans and new shirts. Grow a beard? W hates beards. W wants nothing from me - not the food I make, even. So what shall her xmas gifts be? She told me of one book she wants, I have another, I have a razor type she likes, and I think she would like the movie The East. Abandonment issue - Jealousy of my fancy job and travel and income I start interviewing college applicants to my alma mater next month, in Sweden. I am responsible for my own happiness and situation.
Later - thanks -
L
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
