Thank you. It's been a roller coaster, for sure. And I don't think this is the end of it. But I certainly have more good days than bad now and I feel that the tables have turned. Instead of me at home lonely, sad, rejected and dumped I feel very much like if he really is confused and ever decides he wants to come back...it's going to be on him to do the work to prove that. 6 months into this nightmare (well, since I knew...his PA has actually been going on for 10+ months, I'd guess) I now know I don't NEED him to survive. I can make it on my own. I'm not even feeling the rush to jump into another relationship or marriage like I did in the beginning. I'm happy being single and being in charge of the remote at night.
