Well. I haven't been here in a while. And that's a good thing.

I'm doing great. smile I have successfully enforced my boundaries and feel stronger every day. It killed me the first time I told him not to call and said nothing else physical. I thought that would be IT. He would be gone and that was that.

But he's actually been very pleasant, pretty easy to deal with and I feel great. I'm no longer waiting for him to call, hoping it's him when my phone rings, etc... I am happy and actually looking forward to my future.

My therapist even told me today that she doesn't think I need to keep coming on a weekly basis. We're going to try every other week.

I have sold our house and bought a smaller, less expensive house right here in the neighborhood so my kids don't have to change schools. I got approved for the mortgage on my own and couldn't be happier about the location.

I'm sending out tons of resumes and getting quite a few calls. I've decided to hold off on the job for another month or so until I get settled in the house. There's just too much going on right now.

H continues to make comments about being confused. But they don't confuse me/ make me sad/ give me false hope any longer. Nobody knows what the future holds, divorce isn't permanent. If we are meant to be we will find our way back together after he works through his confusion or whatever is going on in his head. I'm not waiting for that to happen NOW. NOW is not the time for us, that is clear. He has too much he needs to work on within himself...and I'm actually really enjoying working on myself and discovering I'm pretty strong and independent. I'm actually excited about returning to work. smile

There are some days I think I'd be nuts to take him back after everything he's done...and some days I just can't imagine this is really the end of us. But I know that either way the kids and I will be FINE!