sorry i've been lost in space lately- i's a wacko show here. met h's aunt's body on fri and then - drove around a few days- total bs festival with my mom & her (non)recuperation (too slow for words - ) - and my insane sister(s) and their "business plans" for all this- true administrators that they are (what? hands on - actual grunt work- i don't think soooo)
SO- YIKES AND i'm sorry and glad at the same time. it's got to feel both bad and good- sounding more on the good side tho for you- the decision- the end of shilly shallying around and so on.
you sound good tho- about this all- i am sorry to hear tht he says he will not change. i think he will have a very rude awakening in store for him. Now that you can no longer wait on his "awakening" - i am sure that you are rite and your future will hold both bad and good - but overall knowing whatyou want and do not want is more in the good columjn than bad.
i do believe we all are capable of just about anything. you will prevail in the end = i'm sure yuou're well fortified for a bit of (maybe) hardhip after alllll the mlc insanityh? some days i think i can do anything- just because i could and am riding out this junk.once we're past being fogged out- discouraged to death and incapable of being surprised anyhmore in life- honestly, i'm thinking all of us may be surprised at what hearty characters we really are.
i hope it is not toooo hard on you and for you. you do really deserve quite alot more than what it's been for a long long time. me too for that matter. what i acdept at the moment and why- is all just my own "junk" . yuour decision and conviction are inspiring man.
do you have some specific plan about this? or merely a statement of new policy???
i'm still havingh my old "new" policy of f these jerks (family). its kind of pitiful- but judicious use of profanity really does help here. silly but true. talkin tough- it keeps me tough sometimes.
how did things go with your parents? i was thinking aboutyou-= this family stuff can make you nuts totally.
i got nothin otherwise. good to her your voice- are ya still visiting linda? i missed her before she left- will try an e-mail. hope she's havin fun - we can live vicariously
xxo the journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step-
