Looking for New Options If H Wants Divorce

[MyNewStrength]

I woke up in tears.

I trusted and love this man who has hurt me. I believed or thought that if was committed and took care of myself and him, that we could work through anything.

He had or is having an affair and I cannot compete against that. I feel foolish, pitiful, rejected,, and devalued. His conduct has been borderline EVIL. His "mirror" is distorted, so he is unable to truly see himself or reflect with clarity.

My heart hurts for the sorrow and defat I feel, for the love I lost, and for the pain I have endured. Yesterday I was between grief and anger. But now, I only ache.

I pray for God's salvation and deliverance. I did pray for my H, because he is possessed by something not of the human kind. Why do I say this? I have been with him for 15 years. I know his faults, his ways, I basically I know him. He was a kind being and 3 to 4 years ago, he changed. I know he was struggling with something and so my intuition led to the discovery of his affair.

My H knows (and maybe resents) that I know him so well, that is why he tries to deflect his anger and blame onto me. And like an idiot, I have allowed it to happen. So, I need to start looking at him as someone not of this world, someone who mind is clouded with the "fog" as you say.

“You can not change what you don’t acknowledge.” Dr. Phil

Thank you for my tears...