my heart is hurting me a lot. I am in shock. I can't believe that the person I married just told me that he was looking at apartments today. I have no words, cannot explain how I feel except that I feel dead inside.
This is what happened: H knew that I had a doctor's appoint today and that I am on stress leave. So I informed H of the update saying that I am off for another two weeks. He kept asking me questions like have you told your mother, have you told this person, that person...Did you tell the doctor...I told him that they know some of it and that the situation is kinda in the air.
He then replied to me, What do you mean in the air, It has not been working at all since January. (lies-cause I knew something was wrong but did not know the extent of it till later especially since we were still intimate then.
He then started saying things like: I told you that I did not love you anymore ...to which I stopped the convo short cause if he continued I would have crumbled to the floor. I left, went to my sisters, and a three way calling with some of my friends, also called the counsellor.
I probably wont sleep all night, especially that I guess now he is moving out and wants to talk to the kids.
I know that a lot of you went through what I am going through right now., but I could not imagine how it physically hurt, feels like my heart is being compressed right now
Me 37 H 37 D9 D6 M9/ T12 ILYBINILWY 05/2013 Asked to S 06/13 Said he wants to S for sure 08/13 Said that he's looking for a place (Sept 17/13) No ring on his finger (Sept 19/13)
