Thanks so much Pud! I have to keep reminding myself that all of us make mistakes and we just need to learn from them and not do them again while DBing.
I do need to appreciate the positives that I've seen, and keep moving forward with improving myself and not to backslide again. But if I do, not to dwell on it so much like I can't come back from it.
I have noticed that he has kept his distance since Sat and that is a lesson that I need to remind myself not to mention R again.
I'm going to keep moving forward and not let this set me back! i am going to let him come to me next time!