Looking for New Options If H Wants Divorce

[MyNewStrength]

JonF and KenF. I messed up. Thank you for your words. I am very distraught still at this moment as my mind cannot wrestle with the fact that this imposter, liar, and cheater has actually accused me of being the aggressor. While I should not have thrown a shoe at him, (and he told me that I also threw the remote (but I do not remember that), he threatened to have an injunction issued against me if I were to call the OW, tell the OW husband, or call his job.

I could NOT believe my ears. Then he said he would rather be a liar and cheat. Who says that!!!!

I am crying for everything I have lost, how I have been treated, how I could have forgiven him the first time to be betrayed and treated with the kind of evil that is truly heartbreaking.

I called my lawyer and left him 2 messages. He is with a client until 4:00 pm EST. I want to change the locks, I want to not be here anymore to deal with this, and I want him to suffer a little. I spoke to my boss today because I am not going to work tomorrow. I can't. And if I have to see my lawyer I hoping tomorrow. I will file now for adultery. and then hire a PI to get the proof as a part of the settlement. I am so hurt that I am numb right now.

I am dying inside of raw emotions - how could a HUMAN BEING...a human being with feelings and emotions cause this unbearable pain and grief? It is not likely that I could ever recover from his vial attacks and treatment. (Oh, by the way, when he left after coming home to pack, he said for me never to contact him by phone or text; he is only going to communicate via email). He has the power.....I could not say or do anything but cry...

I know I will have to lift my head up at some point, but I am truly at a lost...of myself.