Looking for New Options If H Wants Divorce

[MyNewStrength]

The friends that he does have think he is this great guy, but if they were flies on the wall of our home, they would probably never want to interact with him again. I need to not let him push my buttons. I need to forgot about what is going with him and find myself a life that makes me happy. He wants to live in his fog/fantasy. And he calls me child!

While I hated how I responded to H tonight, I think I have been harboring some deep "heated" emotions about his affairs and I forgave him last time... I guess I feel like an idiot for loving a man who continues to lie to me and himself.

I was reading a bible lesson on having balance between faith and conduct. When these 2 are out of sync, or unbalanced, you can never experience happiness. Well my H is living out of balance because his conduct (having affairs, lying, betrayal, and deceit) conflicts with who he project to the world.

And HE DOES NOW it. How shameful that he is too mush of a narcissist to realize it. Thank you all so much for the support.