Me- LBS or WAS?

[littleGTO]

AS- Well, if the 2 year timeline is any kind of indicator...2 years ago this fall is when H starting checking out. By Christmas he was already emotionally involved with OW. By Valentine's Day he was "in love" with her.

FY- Why am I not happy? Well, I actually am getting there. I don't have H. And, cute guy is someone who I think needs to be in my life right now, but not to be the source of my happiness (although I do like hanging out with him).

BF- I am doing okay.

Was at a ball game with H yesterday and he said to me he thinks I'm ready to move on, but that fear of losing time with my boys is holding me back. He may be right that I don't want to "rock the boat" where the boys are concerned.

I said I wasn't sure about his perception of why I haven't "pushed things forward" but that part of it was that part of me wanted/wants to believe that despite everything that has happened that he and I were just meant to be together. He said he thought about that too. But, we also agreed neither of us knew if that true any more.

So, in the mean time...I continue to hang out w cute guy on occasion, I am going out w friends, and I am swamped with new job and boys' new schedules! Life is busy..good busy!