Acceptance...

[Live4myDay]

Well had the phone call. I was silent for the most part. But I did get my 2 cents in. I wanted to sound confidant and of course smart. I told them how I check the research almost daily to keep up to date on stem cell research and trials, etc.

Apparaently they are concerned but not knowledgeable. And it was obvious that they don't have the time to research either. They both FIL and X basically agreed to D and what she wants to have done in Dec.

Left it at that. Probably won't be adressed by either of them again for a while.

Later X called D and plans were discussed regarding the Holiday trip. He doesn't have a clue regarding what her needs and care are. I'm not going to put that fear in my head. My D knows what needs done.

My S on the other hand told me he didn't realize he would be driving 8 hrs in car to Keys with the OW that he is just meeting and then to be spending a week with her. I think his anxiety just went off the scale. I do think that's a lot to ask. MHO. But then again its not about me.

I'm trying to refocus those thoughts and fears and hurts (entire families going as we've done in past...only difference. ME and OW.) Let me just feel the pain and then I can release it so when the time comes I'll be ok.

Ok. So went back on Match.com and was thinking of going out this weekend with someone I met. It would really help get my foot out the door. Still very unsure of the online dating thing...but in my situation it's at least an option.

Any suggestions or comments are always welcome...