Acceptance...

[Live4myDay]

KML - apparently it pretty much was. I guess it's just the bouncing around in my head that gets me. I'm trying to become immune to and bounce it right back off of me. Sometimes hard to do.

I have been focusing more on GAL. I've been swimming in pool doing laps and strength/conditioning to prepare myself for an upcoming Dragon Boat Fesitval. I just joined a local club and hope to be picked for the race team.

My D and I joined financial peace university classes through our church. And I'm thinking of taking a Co-Depend Group on thursday...but I don't want to keep doing things that reflect on the marriage and divorce.

I joined Meetup.com and am considering meeting a Christian Singles Group in local park for jazz nite. I'm stil a little shy about these things.

Since my D and S are going to go to Keys with X and his GF, I don't want to go back home to family...it would be too hard with out kids. I need to be doing something keeping busy and not necessarily on traditions and family.

I'm thing of an adventure trip hiking or something and am leaning more towards a mission trip somewhere. It's gonna be tough one for me...if I choose to make it tough. Emotionally I will always be heart tugged by my children and future grandkids someday and the thoughts of "family".

So there is a lot of GAL going on. But, X is still there and so is she. Drop me in a pit with snakes and I may totally freak out but they say after awhile you get used to them.

Conference phone call tonight with D, X, and FIL regarding stem cell treatment in Dominican. Possibly over holidays and dealing with X on that trip gives me anxiety. Lets just get December over with! LOL

Any suggestions are welcome...I really am working on this.