Harder and Harder......Part three

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Flippin aliens.....This is why you dont try to mindread.....

My Birthday- no contact,nothing said, hadnt spoke or email in 4 days...I 100% agree with Mr. Bond that she didnt want me to misinterpret it

This AM a email from her with a restaurant review attached- no message, just the review.

I know it wasnt a mistake because its a restaurant in my town.

GO AWAY ALIENS !!!!!

[labug]

What does that ^^^ mean?

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Yesterday I stood up to the workplace bully

Unfortunate, she is my boss's assistant. I asked her to please stop screaming at me and to please stop harassing me.

She is a gossip, critisizes everything, dominating, angry person who acts like she is my boss and after two days in a Row of her jumping all over me I finally stood up to her.

I will prob lose my job and I will be screwed but at least I will have stood up for myself

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Their Was a very loud knock on my front door.....

I had just gotten d3.5 back from w and we were napping

I spring off the couch and open the door. Its the mailman "where does w want her mail sent, there have been multiple address changes and the computer doesn't know where to sort it"

Ahhhh ummmmm........I don't know

Next time I see her I'll send her your way...........


So I'm sitting here thinking that's a bit odd and realizing I'm so dark that I have no clue what she is doing and what's going on.

I also went out to collect sigs for re- election this morning. I made the decision that because the house was up for sale that if anyone ran I would step aside. I called city hall yesterday and no one had taken out papers so I decided that I would spend the day knocking on doors.

I was about half way done when I approached a mother with a young daughter. I asked if she would sign and she said " can I sign more then one?"

Someone else came around?

Yes, yesterday she said...........

Now I'm confused - papers are due Monday and I don't want a race

Luckily, as fate would have it, I ran into the guy 15 mins later. I told him my plan and that I would step aside due to my possible moving situation- come to find out he owns the agency that is selling my house. I signed his papers and he drove me home.

It was a little sad because there is a bit of ego boost when you hold elective office. Two terms- not bad. When things stabilize I can do it again.

It feels like a lot of life de-constructing is happening right now. The bombs seismic waves are rattling all aspects of my life right now.......I gotta surf this bit€h

[LBH_LC]

PS,

Hope you're doing well. I just wanted to drop you a note to say how proud I am of you; you're doing great. Much better than I would do in your sitch!

How's the fitness going?

Lefty

PS: I see you're a public servant. My background in the in public sector if you have any patronage positions open! j/k

[Positivespin]

Prima ballerina

D3.5 started ballet today and her rocket fueled, super proud, tiger daddy was there snapping pics like British paparazzi. Only a few tears this time.

I m learning my trigger.....it's when she displays self confidence. It's what I've always lacked.

I can PMA better then most but since the bomb I can't make a decision at all. Worse, I need constant re- assurance from others.

Are there different levels or types of self confidence? Do you feed each in different ways?

Today when d3.5 was asked by the ballet teacher to say her name and her favorite color , the others mumbled or turned there head and one ran away. My d3.5 straightened her back, looked her in the face and said loud and clear " my name is first, middle,last and my favorite color is PINK! The teacher took a step back.

I've NEVER been so proud in my life

[JuneReN]

Amazing

I have an idea...why don't you let D3 be your teacher, hmmm?

Self confidence starts with the belief in yourself PS. Pick something you know you are good at. Have the confidence to do or say what you need to do. Failure is absolutely a possible outcome but that is what makes us even better, even more knowledgeable....

These things will not define you. If you need something to define you, let your D3 do it. I wanna be her when I grow up!!!

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So my mom asked me again last night "Do you really think she is going to come back?"

"YES!"

There are a possible million reasons, either imaginary, lie or truth, why she wont come back. I know others are telling me its just my ego getting in the way of me moving on.

If im moving on in every other aspect of my life why does it matter if I leave this piece open? Im done explaining- BUTT OUT!

Im living my life trying to be the best person I can. Trying to set myself up to live a freer (sp?)more exciting life.

The real question is Can we fall in love again? If we cant, then its done because Im not a roomie and D3.5 will see right through that BS. Who knows if we can- but id like to at least give it a try.

[Positivespin]

"We have such a limited amount of time on this Earth and your beautiful life deserves to be lived fully and heroically" - I don't know.

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W texts me at 9 pm tonight " I'm going to stop by the house and pick up the mixer"

What? It's nine o' f'ing clock and we live in Maine and its past the bedtime of 90% of the folks up here because it's almost winter for chrissakes.

And you taking my Hobart!

Those of you who know kitchen gadgetry understand that that statement should be grounds for divorce. My wife is nuts

Soooo many questions - I'm not a mind reader.