let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

My old friend helped me see that I have been unhappy and not getting what I wanted out of the marriage for a long time. I never really felt the love that I wanted and looking back I could see how selfish she has been for years. She is an expert liar and looking back, I have no idea how long she has been lying to me, it could be a few months or maybe she has always lied. Either way, I don't deserve that.

Buddy does not have kids from the first M. That ended 1.5 years in when she left for OM, very similar to my R, except I stuck around and gave her another chance when things fizzled with her affair. I wish I hadn't, but then I wouldn't have my boys, who are awesome, so maybe I wouldn't redo things differently.

The chess board is much more complicated since my last post. I caught soon to be ex and OM at a public park, confronted them. She acted like a spoiled little kid, said her lawyer said it was ok that she sees OM. I asked how long it has been going on, she said she didn't need to tell me. He called the police while soon to be ex and I were talking.

when he came back, I told him he was an [censored] for messing with a married woman, she jumped in between and held me back stating that she was the [censored], I agreed, started walking away, she followed and i stated asking why she agreed to RetroV, explaining that the deposit was now lost. She said it was so we could communicate better for the kids sake. I explained that the reason we were going was to see if we could save the M.

With that the police showed up, she said that I pushed her, they talked her out of filing charges and let me go. i went back to the house to see the boys, she came home and called the police and pressed charges. I spent the night in a cell, but the police were very cool about it. they said that it happens all the time with women who are cheating and gave me advice about fighting the charges.

She was at my bond hearing the next day and dropped the charges, but filed a order of protection stating that I can't go back to the house for the next 7 months and i can only contact her by email or text or phone and only in regards to visitation times, drop off and pick up, and, get this, work related matters... like I'm gonna give this witch any more business!

She did text me 2 days later to tell me that I could go to my sons performance, but "we sit appart" I ignored it and she texted back 2 hours latter with a "Just let me know" which I also ignored. I went to the game with my parents and of course she ended up coming an sitting in the same section i was in. I have no idea if she saw me.

I did find out that my father in law was very pissed that she had me arrested. She lied about seeing him last week, AND asked him to lie to me about it, so he totally knows that she is up to no good, and isn't willing to help her out at all with the divorce, so that makes me feel a bit better, knowing that her own dad is on my side, as much as he can be.

I am just sick of being treated this way and I am moving on. The night I spent in jail, knowing that she lied about me pushing her finally made me realize how evil she is and how done with her I am. I am hurting and feeling very lonely and alone. My family tells me to forget about her and move on, which I wish I could do, but I think it will take some time to heal, and I should probably find a therapist to help me out here.

I probably won't be posting her anymore seeing how I am not planning on ever getting back with her. I think it is for the bast that it is over. I don't want to ever be with someone so evil and manipulating ever again. It kills me that my boys believe that I touched her, and I can only imagine what other lies she has told them. Part of me feels like just curling up and dying, but that would make it too easy for her and I have so much more love to give, once i find someone deserving of it.

Thanks for everyone who tried to help me out along the way. My marriage was doomed from the start. I wish you all well and I hope that you have the strength and courage to fight the demons in your own lives.