She is gone and not coming back

[SFC_Swede]

Guys...I have said before that I have zero, zero hope of reconciliation. We have had several talks, and she is just done. Not sure if its a MLC, me, whatever...but she saw a therapist last year after I got home from Afghanistan...and recent conversations have revealed that those counseling sessions gave her the strength and ability to walk away when she felt she needed or wanted to.

This is why I do not trust counselors.

I did all my 180s and more, she just isnt interested. She has moved on, and having the time of her life. Sure its easy now, her son is 17, finished her degree, got the big promotion at work, ect...all while I supported those things for years. So now its fun time, or as she put it "its ok for me to go wild before I get in another relationship".

I know many of you have had cheating spouses or were left for another person, yet hope to reconciliate with your spouse. But I am sorry, I cant do it. I can not accept her back after she "goes wild" having random, or even short term R sex with other guys. And too be honest I dont think she would come back anyway. She is a strong woman, something that attracted me to her...and she will simply move on rather than ever come back to me, no matter what I do.

So, I still believe in this system, and the help that everyone provides to eachother...but I think the road has come to an end for me. I need to get over her once and for all....and move on myself.