I'm feeling like the lesson that the universe is hammering home here is about my ability to remain open in the face of pain. To be able to build something positive after rejection. P is the big opportunity to practice that. The positive steps feel good.
I also see it reflected in smaller ways with a couple of recent potential interests. No go, but something good will come out of each. Not what I had initially hoped or imagined, but something that ends up bringing me joy in a completely different way. I'll take it.
I'm checking out someone new. Enjoying the thrill of getting to know her. Kind of amazed at how *much* stuff (flavors of fear) bubbles to the surface.
Slowing down and sitting with things. Writing down all those hard questions I need to keep asking myself. Watching myself slow down and get grounded in a way I haven't before. There's a bit if a sigh of relief with that. It's not a one time thing. Awareness is continual work. So far, so good. Not clean and linear, but perfectly okay.
