Me- LBS or WAS?

[littleGTO]

Thanks, 2nd, I don't feel strong most of the time. I just feel like I don't have it in me to wait around and be patient to hold out for what, my already-dead M?

For my H who has been emotionally-unavailable now for 2 years? For someone who is still in love (admittedly) to OW, who he is likely still holding out hope for a R with?

I don't know how to be happy w/o him and I don't really think I can ever be happy w him again. Where does that leave me...? I don't know.