i took two days off work as pescribed by nurse Gineen. just did my own thing. i an 12 miles in 2 days. that was nice. for some reason i think best when i run. and i dont even think. its like a snow globe for me.. im like a snow globe all shook up.. then as i run, everything starts to settle down. by the end of my run, i feel like a snow globe that is just sitting on a shelf covered in dust. i dont know if that makes sense..
i still have a weird feeling about it. i am not one to be afraid. i know i will still do what i do because i am good at it. its just a gnawing feeling that i could be next. went in today to fill out my timecard to find out that out that one of our guys got his nose broken yesterday. pulling wire and the pipe ripped off the wall and smoked him in the face. i dont know what is going on, but these accidents need to stop. i truly believe the months of 60-80 hr weeks are catching up to us.
i find myself thinking about things that i would like to do. things i would like to see. wondering if this is what i want to do with my life. i cant spend to much time in my head thinking about the future though. either way, sometimes its just fun to dream. there are things that i have never done and want to. not a bucket list or anything, but just things that i should be able to do if i want.
re opened my online dating profile. what a let down..lol same crazy women as before. same crazy messages. makes me realize even more the things i want. i want a normal down to earth woman. one who cares for her man, and wants the same in return. none of these "im so great..im a princess.. men need to bow down to me.." women. hockey fan is a must i realize. someone who has been through he11 and learned from it or at least be able to understand. family oriented. not afraid to try something new. okay.. so pretty much me but a female..lol maybe i will find "her", until then im going to do what Wii does and date myself. lol
