Me- LBS or WAS?

[littleGTO]

PS- I think the "stud approach" will do far more for your ego, so...

ruby-

AS- Same page, same time!

H is DEFINITELY contacting me more this week after our earlier conversation this week where I told him I am lonely and want more and more a partner to do life with.

I think he's getting a little nervous wants this means or looks like.

He is also suspicious about my BFF from work as he knows we have been texting more lately (I shared this w him after he asked about who kept texting me Sat night at S10's bday party).

He was also ribbing me about "the mysterious guy" who guessed my age to be 16 years younger than I actually am (don't know if he was serious but who cares)... I had shared this w him one day when he was talking about himself and how "other people" think he is so much younger.

Then, there is the 3rd piece of info...that a guy had asked me out this summer knowing I was S, but not D. At some point I had shared that with him also.

SO, he's now bringing all of this up b/c I think he's trying to assess where I am with all this.

We were at S10's ball game tonight and he kept trying to find out "what's going on with you?" I was very tired from the week and honestly did not feel like engaging in R conversation at the game.

He is taking the boys tomorrow night & asked if I had plans. I said, "yes," but didn't elaborate (going out w a GF). He said, "Of course you do," as he knows I've been pretty social this summer. "Do you have a date? LOL?" he asked.

I said, "No, and I have not dated."

He replied, "Well, I would hope not, b/c you would have to be D'ed first!"

I said, "I've thought about dating, but also in the same context you just mentioned." True...dating is entering my mind, but I don't really think I would feel comfortable being in public dating OM.

(I know, I know, some of you would remind me that I've had a bit of a "closet R" with cute guy ...& that he & I have kissed on two occasions at his house. But, cute guy and I are friends, not dating and have drawn the lines in the sand w physicality between us.)

On the other hand, I do NOT trust myself w cute guy...or going over to his house after a couple of drinks as the lines were getting very "blurry" last visit. That just indicates to me my desires to have so much more than I have now... even as superficial and meaningless as that seems.

So, it will be interesting to see if cute guy texts me tonight or tomorrow night (as he has the past 3 weekends he has not had his son)... I'm kinda thinking "no" b/c of the boundaries and not sure he really values our friendship enough to just hang out w/o the possibility of being physical. But, that will tell me SO MUCH about him if that is the case.

Back to H...in the parking lot as we were leaving he said, "Are you all set?" hanging around my car & wanting to know if I wanted a hug. I said, "I'm all set." Something about hugging in public right now is not where I'm at. He asked 3 times!

LBC detaches, WAS shows interest for the first time. Maybe so! (BUt, I still will not settle for being Plan B b/c OW isn't working out for him right now!)