It does feels like I'm giving up on everything. My fear of not being the best father I can be to my kids cripples me. The thought of being replaced defeats me.

With T1000's reminder, it did changed my outlook of things albeit not completely. The fear does creeps up time and again.

Two nights ago, I suddenly woke up only to find D4 saying she loves me. I made sure she's not talking in her sleep by replying that I love her too and she nodded before going back to sleep. That was the greatest feeling that I could ever wish for. I just wanted to share this with everyone.
It does reinforces my believe that I'm on a right track. I'm not sure if I should read more into this other taking it as it is but it sure as hell felt great.

M35 XW34
D5 D4
M 6years T 10years
Bomb 5/2013
Joint Petition signed 6/2013
Moved out end of 8/2013
Court Hearing of Joint Petition 9/2013
D finalized in 3 months - no news yet