Questions without answers...I'm tired of asking.

[albamarie]

Will this last forever? IDK, I don't have forever, I barely have the strength this weekend to not shove him out the door. Thinking here, more like bitting my tongue.

Last night was a twist of words that I didn't fall for so he resorted to anger.This time I put a stop to it all quickly, and said you don't get to deflect by using anger against me, your words don't hurt me anymore.

With that came retraction, softer speech, more confusion on his part and less a$$whole coming out. Funny how " I don't think of you" turned into " I don't think of deceiving you with purpose".

Tomorrow I am seeing my parents for the first time since Nov. They were sick and angry about his MLC enough to back away from all of us, thanks guys.

They too will not be given the opportunity to twist and dig innuendoes at me. What is it about people, some just have that need to make others feel bad.

I no longer give myself permission to be influenced by others who are not looking out for my best interest.

There is no new deadline....every day...every hour is a deadline for immediate evacuation from my life, and let the door hit on the way out, maybe it will knock some sense into you.