So good to hear from you! And ironic. Last night I was on here and then checked your blog to see if you had updated. I am the same way with feeling anxious, getting agitated and flipping out. My H doesn't understand that and assumes that I am mad, being a b!tch or showing my a$$ (or whatever else he can come up with).
Personally speaking, meds help. When all of this started, I got back on 1 but it didn't help the anxiety. The doctor changed them around and within a week, I felt so much better. This is not the first time I've taken them. I know that I would have ended up hospitalized at some point if I didn't take them. And it has cut down on my flipping out episodes.
You guys still sound like you have some work to do, but H is still making progress. Hope it continues!
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together