Thanks, Ruby. It is scary and exciting, and I also have mixed emotions on my M. Part of my, as noted above, knows that H will never change. And part of me still holds out hope that he will. Every so often, I see him peek out and check the temperature.
He has still made no effort on the D. A few weeks ago he was bitching to our mutual friend about me and the guy told him to quit bitching and file if that's what he wanted. He said that shuts H up. If I didn't force the accountant issue, then H would sit and wallow in the debt and do nothing.
He did open up to me a few days ago and told me he has PTSD. I will not go into why, but this is the first time he's told me this. He also told me he has nightmares that wake him up at least 2x per month. H does not believe in counseling, so I don't know what else can be done there.
I go back home this afternoon. I've got a list of homes to drive by and sent my realtor a list that I would like to visit. I haven't slept very well in the hotel bed, so I am looking forward to my own bed.
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together
