The remorse/amends discussion has been floating about, I remember reading threads from years ago. And it's something that I think we all consider during this....what does remorse "look" like? What do amends "look" like? Some say many MLC'ers never give them, and does that invalidate our LBS experience? The pain? The damage? Some think yes, some not. Some tie it to being able to forgive, some, not.
So I was just pondering that within myself, determining what it looks like to ME. What are my "expectations", and, if they are not met, then what?
As UR might say, I got ahead of myself...true, but it is in my nature, and controllable now that I understand that nature. Just like to be prepared for any possible situation, if possible.
It was funny when IC said that about when/if she finally takes the big step, and how it would all seem so...distant, I thought of you and H and your reconnection and piecing...
So tonight W and I went to S3 school's open house, together!! That is one of the small changes with her the past couple months, she isn't trying to control/exclude me from that involvement with the kids. And, she complimented me, that the color of my shirt looked really good on me...haven't heard anything like that in ages! The vibe between us was so different, more relaxed and positive, than the last time we did a school function together this spring.
Small things...but good.
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
