It does make sense that you feel it is too soon to talk to your SO. I have the same feelings. I’ve been asked by my friends and GFs why I don’t talk to my H and tell him what I feel. I keep telling them that this is not time yet. I need to feel really strong and confident when I do this kind of talk.
You might be right about why he didn’t leave the message when he called. It does sound like he wants to be in control and didn’t want you to call him back.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state