Acceptance...

[Live4myDay]

JJ...thanks for asking. The call didn't end up taking place...it's been postponed until Monday. I thought maybe he'd send me an email and ask my opinion of things privately between us...but not sure he really cares.

Not much interaction between D and X either. He's busy with work out of town. Not the same town as OW but still away from his home base. Curious, last weekend he was back at his home and never connected with S who lives in same city.

X went to big Clam Bake in our hometown put on by Mason's which my X and my FIL are and have been going to this event for years. Funny doesn't or hasn't ever thought of bringing our S.

Then on Sunday he goes to Browns season homeopener...with his buddy. Doesn't even invite S. Now mind you my S is NOT into sports or football or competive anything...but still a way to spend time together and connect.

My S hadn't a clue and could care less...he hates seafood and football. It just made me realize what kind of father my X has been to my S all these years.

I wonder how my X handles all the questions at the clam bake about us, my D and I? Smooth I'm sure. Like it's no big deal and his life has moved on. Everyone asks about D because it was a big deal her accident. He must just let that all bounce off of him too painful.

Lately, I've been enjoying what I have and the life I'm creating. Feeling lots of gratitute and realization how life would be sooo different if he were actually in it. I can only image it as a Cinderella story now...and that will never happen.

I keep hoping that I'll hear news of OW is too controling or has issues. Hmmm. Nothing. Life must be still in honeymoon with the breaks inbetween. I did mention they are already planning Christmas in the Keys together.

I don't know what I'm going to do without kids for Holidays. Not gonna stress until the fat lady sings. Hahaha.

But honestly, this OW can't be so perfect!! She 45 and in relationship with a man that D his wife and never sees his kids. He says she is so sincere and genuine...everything I'm not. So why isn't she married and have kids and living happiliy ever after ? Why was she so available at the time of the falling apart of our marriage?

Do you think I should initiate an email regarding our D? that would be a complete 180!