Taking A Stand; What's my Position?

[Mimi00]

Thanks AS, Ruby and Chl0!

In response to Ruby, I have joined a few meetup groups; the 5k last weekend was with one of those groups and I'm suppksed to do dinner with another this weekend but I may not be able to.

Unfortunately 2 days ago I was transporting teens from my job in my car from a meeting and something I the road gave me a flat....I tried to get the wheel off but didn't realize there was a lock on my wheel that I didn't have a key to. I texted H bc he was supposed to put triple-A on our insurance plan long before BD. So I texted to confirm we had it....no response....so I figure things out on my own and 3 hours later texted him back "nevermind, thanks anyways...hope you are well" even though he never responded. Soon after that 2nd text he responds "hey there....I'm laying down, big headache".

I got two men from a car dealership to try to help me out, it was after 10pm...they couldn't help but allowed me to leave my car in their lot overnight until I could find a key for my wheel (I called around and no towing places had this key). One of the men asked me if I had someone I could call to come get me and help me out......that's when it hit me. I am completely alone here. I have no one. Not a soul that I'm close enough to, to ask for help ornthat lives close enough to aid me during an emergency.

And stupid H who doesn't even have the courtesy to text me back and inquire on why I need triple-A.

You'd think I cheated on him or did something horrible....all I did was love him to the best of my ability, cook for him daily, and be there as best as I knew how at that time....I never ment to hurt him by no knowing how to speak his "love language"...... but you'd think I treated him like trash.

Ive been thinking about callling an old coworker of mine that I haven't seen since 2008. I had a big crush on him before H and I began seriously dating.
I want to delete H's number from my phone and just be done with it.

Some of you may not believe me, but DB has helped me to change. I have had a lot of negarive things happen since I moved...I ahve handled well...normally I'd break down and cry...may things are result of H not following through on things he was supposed to do long before BD....normally I'd call him and tell him how bc of him dropping the ball I have to deal with the aftermath....but I haven't called....just the 2 texts the other day when my tire was flat. I am going out and attempting to make new friends here. I have stayed connected w my new friend I made over the summer wheb i first start DBing before I moved. I am trying new things....and everyone sees my changes...i like my changes and will continue...

.but H is the negative spot and i want to erase him from my mind...I changed his name in my phone today (I was going to delete it), I'm considering taking my name off of our joint account. If I do that the last tie will be the phone plan...he would have to remove him self.

He cancelled our health insurance and has his own through his job. I have none now.

I know im rambling...but I had to get this out some where. Today is the first low day I've had in several days...so I hope to get back to PMA after this.


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