My H continues to beat around the bush when it comes to talking about R or moving back. He'll say things like 'it's getting really old living out of a bag' and 'we should probably talk about it at some point' but he never actually sits down or initiates a conversation.
I personally don't feel the need to talk anything out at the moment (granted I'm not the one living out of a bag ) but he keeps making it sound like he wants to talk but never does when we have the time. Last night he ended up working late and stayed at his place for the first time in a about a week. Of course when he's an hour away he starts texting me to tell me how much he's enjoyed being around me and the kids and brings up the R topic. I must be doing a good job of not letting on my own emotions because he said "I would love to know what you are thinking."
I don't feel like I'm being cold or pushing him away, but I'm also not hanging all over him and pushing to move things forward when he's here.
He's just hard to read and isn't doing anything in the affection/I love you department to move things in any particular direction. He's also really avoiding any in person conversations to really get out what he's thinking.
He did say that it made him smile when he caught me kissing his forehead when he was sleeping. However, I'm still hoping for him to take charge and not make me do the work of repairing things. If he wants to move closer he's got to be the one leaning in... and not just doing so by text when he's not home.
Unrelated, I'm finding this place between being separated and 'piecing' things back together a bit confusing at times. There are certain conversations I would love to have, not about reconciling but also not fun topics that I would love to put off until we have been on firmer ground for longer, but some can't wait.
For example, I'm on maternity leave sweating it till my next paycheck. Paying for this little kiddo is going to push me to the very edge financially of what I can handle. H has agreed to pay child support but has also made it sound like it would be a great burden on him to pay the amount required. Then this week he hands me an envelope of money. He said he was going to buy something from his friend but it fell through so instead of depositing back into his account he gave it to me instead. Umm hello - we just had a baby 2 weeks ago and I'm praying I can cover my bills this month. If he's struggling to give me money for child support how is he still making big purchases? If we were really moving toward reconciling I'd need him to make this a team effort to get through this time off of work for me. However, I don't want to bring it up and set us back to where he takes off and I'm on my own again.
Money is always such a downer
BD: Aug 2012 Separated since May 2013 S born Aug 2013 Aug 2013 H agrees to consider 'baby steps toward working things out' H is/was actively seeing someone?
) but he keeps making it sound like he wants to talk but never does when we have the time. Last night he ended up working late and stayed at his place for the first time in a about a week. Of course when he's an hour away he starts texting me to tell me how much he's enjoyed being around me and the kids and brings up the R topic. I must be doing a good job of not letting on my own emotions because he said "I would love to know what you are thinking." 
