Labug and Grace, thank you. Yes, the "high" is gone, and has been replaced with lots of reflection and the return of negative emotions (sadness, anger.)
I realized Joe was calling to catch up because he knew that what was going on would upset me. I also think of how he lied when we first talked about the condo, and avoided me since then. I had to be the one to guess what was happening. He was too afraid of being honest, which is one of the main causes of the breakdown of our M. He continues the same behavior, and since he never had the chance to be alone and grow/learn, he'll repeat the patterns in this and future relationships. I say future relationships because I see him getting a second D sooner or later. The second time around, there'll be a child involved...t's sad, but it's the path he's chosen.
I am going to take some time away from the board. I'll be back to give advice and support from time to time, and also to post milestones like the release of my book. I'm on the alt if those who know about it want to connect with me.
I'd like to thank everyone for the advice and support you've given me. I've been blessed to have you, and don't know how I would've gotten through this without you. Andrew, Kaffe Diem, Tumbling, Wendylon, Grace, Labug, GTO, Ruby, HW, Arsene, FY, Busting, Subguy, BrightFuture, AS, LeftCoast, Mr. Bond, rkyfat, Cadet, and all the others I didn't mention: I will always remember what you did/are doing for me. I send you many blessings and love as you continue on your paths to happiness.
Thank you to Jodi, an amazing coach. I'll always remember what she did for me, too.
This feels like a goodbye (I'm actually a little teary) but it isn't. I'll be around. And I think I'll be able to help you more when I release my book. I'm working really hard to build a strong platform so it can reach as many people as possible.
