Okay, but you are still being RE-active. You need to be PRO-active. What other new activities or actions can you be doing? You're still overthinking things too much. For a moment, stop thinking of being polite or "civilized". What does the primal side of you want?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
