Things have been alright lately. Had a great family day on Sunday. H planned for us to go for a nice Sunday drive to a corn maze, where we spent the day as a family. We had a great time, it almost felt 'normal'. Things seem so awkward sometimes, after BD, like there is a big elephant in the room. Lately, though, things seem more normal. Thank goodness!
We had our 8th anniversary yesterday. I got him a funny anniversary card. Kind of sad being at the store trying to pick out an anniversary card that doesn't sound loving at all! Sigh. When he came home from work I gave him the card, and he suggested we go out for dinner with the family for our anniversary. We had a nice time at the restaurant, and it feels good to be doing things as a family again. Especially since he suggested it! That was actually one of my DB goals, that he would start suggesting to do things together. So I guess I should count my blessings. Small victories!
Normally for our anniversary we would have gone on a little getaway overnight, or got a gift. Oh well, it is what it is, I wasn't expecting much. I was actually surprised that he suggested we go for dinner.
I have been struggling with holding on to this relationship lately. It has taken me every ounce of strength not to have a relationship talk with him, and I am still wading back and forth between wanting to stay or leave. I feel I may be happier leaving. I have my IC appt on Monday, hopefully I will get a bit of clarity.
M: 8 yrs T:14 Twins:7 S:5 BD:'NLILWY': Feb/2013 Mar/Apr/May: MC June: "living in limbo" Sept 12: H moves out Oct 20: reconciling Jan-Feb 2014:MC Feb 2014: separating, and H moved out.
