Guys, I have no words to thank you. I feel so supported and cared for :-) Love you all. Back56, first time you write on my thread. Thank you.
So, I didn't get much sleep last night...Around 1 AM I emailed Joe. This is what I wrote:
"It seems that my friend and I will be going to the seminar together on Saturday, so there won't really be time to talk. It's best this way, because as much as I don't want this to be the case, what's happening in your life is having a negative emotional impact in me. I need to focus on following my own path, healing, and pursuing my life's calling.
So, I'll send you love and wisdom and wish you the best as you handle this phase in your life. Always be true to yourself."
He replied "Tori, I understand."
It's true I was going with my friend, so I didn't lie. Part of me actually wants to skip this seminar, but I won't.
The weird thing is that even though I slept only 2 hrs, I feel energized. Like I've been freed. Isn't that weird? I feel like I can finally let go or Joe and his reckless life/behavior. I'm sure I'll hear from him again as he becomes more strained financially and wants me to make more money, but I'll deal w it when it happens.
About the stuff? FY, I don't think I'll pack it. The burning idea wouldn't work with stuffed animals (too dangerous!) I think I'll just donate everything that reminds me of him. It's over. What happened needed to happen so I could help others, write my book, blog, etc. I'm finally being true to who I am!
We'll see how long this "high" lasts. For now, I'll enjoy the good feelings and let all the toxicity go--with love.
