If being authentic is one of your goals, then truth it is. As Pema suggests, keep your seat, look at all the emotions (which I cannot begin to imagine) filter through and come to the truth.
So as Bug suggests sit with it for a bit.
(((((Tori)))))
Sometimes the gift is that ugly hideous homemade sweater from Aunt Bertha, but it certainly makes us grateful for everything else.
sit with it for a bit.