Me- LBS or WAS?

[littleGTO]

bug, your comments are always thought-provoking. They help me to double-back to some of the things I've previously covered but need to remind myself about.

You are right, I am NOT content to live in this limbo forever. Yet, it is a different kind of limbo now that H is in NC w OW (supposedly) and that I am where I am (don't really care what he is doing, more concerned with where I'm headed).

I have previously talked about my contributions to our M failing... and have 180ed my litte tushy off to try to change these things. I don't think I would revert back to old ways as the changes have really become a part of who I am.

Tori- you are right. I do have resentment toward my H. I do want to forgive him and I do think I can. I just don't know if I can AS HIS WIFE.

I texted my H late last night as I was feeling like I haven't really touched based my him about my feelings and wanted him to know, I said, "...sometimes things are just so hard alone... :("

He responded this morning, " You're not alone! We'll continue to work together to raise our boys as a team!"

I responded back later, "I appreciate the "team" mind-frame of raising our boys but I was referring to being without a loving and emotionally-connected partner in life. I find myself wanting this more and more."

His response, "Oh I see. I know I'm supposed to be that person and I haven't been for quite some time."

He also said he had an appointment with his C after work today, so I am hopeful he is working on his own path.