Help! I'm so hopeless and devastated...

[peaceSJ]

If no such sitch, I'm ok if just he and the kids go. But we usually did everything together especially for kids.

The OW is living in a different city. I think within the recent couple months, they met once a month. But I'm not sure if she is planning to move here or not. She may be in the final process of divorce. I'am so afraid that after she finalizes her divorce, my H will file D too...

I know I have to accept this reality and stay stronger, but it is so hard. MY friend suggested me to take some anti-depressant medication which will make me feel better and get some sleep. She said I need to improve myself and make myself happier. She also suggested that I should try my best to do some thing together with my H... which it seems impossible now...

I think I did 180s well the last two weeks until I confirmed this OW. It seems I lost my last hope. My H still denied this OW to me. Can any of you think of the reasons why?