Help! I'm so hopeless and devastated...

[peaceSJ]

Thank you all for your support. I guess since I don't have family around and I only have two mutual friends who are close to us, I feel very very lonely. I want to talk about this sitch and get some advices, but no one I can talk face to face. I'm glad that I found this site.

I haven't let my family know it. They live very far from me and I don't want them to worry about me too much.

My H wants to take the kids to a theme park and stay there for one night next weekend. But he refused to let me go with them. No matter the kids asked both Dad and Mom go with them, H said either Dad or Mom can go with them. Any advices? I feel he is more and more close to the OW now, and his heart becomes harder and harder to us... Any advice?