Labug: I do a lot of mindreading/wondering. I admit it, I know. I practice every day, and I'm getting a lot better at it.
I have to say I'd almost rather have W hate me than this wishy-washy vagueness. She says she's confused, and doesn't know what's going on, so the good thing is I've almost completely detached at this point.
Also I'm completely backed off of any relationship talk. I went over to the place where W is staying last night to watch football (She'll be moved out in about two weeks). W texted me about using up all of our minutes (we're on a shared plan). I had set up an IP phone on my computer, so minutes should be fine.
Spur of the moment, I decided to go tuck the step-kids in. D10 wrapped all four limbs around me and cried and wouldn't let me go while S5 climbed on my back; love those darned kids. W just laughed at them. I tucked them in, and sang S5 a song, and it was great. They went to sleep, but I even told W after the game I was gonna come give them a kiss goodbye, and she said, "OK, come on up, but hurry, I have to get up early."
I know that's not going dark, but I'm ok breaking the rule to see my kiddos. I didn't really even look at W either, and I responded with one sentence answers to her requests about the cell phone bill, etc.
So at this point, I basically told W last week that I was confused, and didn't know what the heck she wanted, so I was just going to expect updated divorce paperwork, and go from there. So that's my plan! Detached and ready to go!
