She has every right to hate me, and yeah, I think she probably does. The fact that she has pushed so hard towards this from the start with very little wavering, yeah. I don't think there's anyone else. I think I'm just that odious to her. She's leaving with nothing but her clothes, that's how much she wants this done. She would rather postpone medical procedures that could save her life than accept my help. Says a lot about me, doesn't it?
Do I love her enough to let her go? Define let go. If you mean enough to let her pursue her happiness without me, yes. If you mean enough to like it, no. If you mean enough to stop loving her, no.
I will maintain radio silence with her, continue to work on myself, try to muddle on, and pray.
