Need help detaching

[lost_hope]

Thanks guys. My update ... "More of the same ..." Our relationship has deteriorated to a point of no return. Because one of his recent complaints about me is my tidiness of course when I was pregnant and now esp with baby I'm even "worse" than I was pre pregnancy. I'm sorry if given a choice between cleaning and consoling my son guess which one I'm going to choose? Every single time. Well for him and his neat freak mom that's two wrong choices every time. Bc (a) I'm spoiling my son (which is complete bullsh-t) and (b) I'm not spending my waking hours cleaning. this is how they view me. And it's not going to change. My mother in law actually had the nerve the other day to refer to me as a housewife who won't get anything done all day bc Im holding my baby. Excuse me?? A housewife who is an executive who rakes in (slightly) more dough than her son even while on mat leave ???!! This woman (and her son) are nuts.

And the worst part is they judge me for being too into my son but they'd be the first people complaining if I valued anything (except cleaning) above him. Well look at what her detached parenting style did. I certainly don't want my son to grow up to be like his father in the emotions department.

Anyway still loving life bc my son is in it. And seriously contemplating how I can become a WAS myself. I can't deal with the pressure, complaints and lack of support. Plus lack of love or affection. We are just roommates who are raising a child and sharing finances. And he's ok with that. I'm not. I want love and happiness and a family. I don't want to be alone but I also can't stay with someone who doesn't love me just because ...

I'm so sick of all of this ...