Take a deep breath, pick up DR and re-read it. Don't stress too much about the backsliding. It happens to all us from time to time.

If you need to vent, use this forum. If you need advice, use this forum. If you really have to talk to a friend, make sure it's one with absolutely no connection to your H, so that there is no way anything will get back to him.

Stay strong.

Both 50
S14
M 16 yrs (his 3rd; my 1st)

ILYBINILWY - 24 Dec 2012
H moved out - 27 Jun 2013
Legally separated - 6 Sep 2013
Closing the door and changing the locks