I think for you, what you need to do is to use this forum as a journal. Think of it like when you're training for a race. You document changes and improvements. Do the same with your M situation.

I just have the feeling that if you stop posting, you won't continue your efforts.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER