sorry to hear you in such a quandry. as usual- i don't think it's all one thing or the other. i feel alot like you- not sure it's doable - not sure it's chuck it all out the window time.
i got nothin wise to say- i ws going to admit that sometimes when i talk to h- i am sorry to admit to self that i "feel better" a bit in life. maybe old habit- maybe whatever the heck - idk.
i'm sure it's like that for you a bit too- it's a long long time to just weed it all out of your soul and move one way or the other.
like us all - i guess you're stuck in holding pattern - waiting to see exactly what you feeel "in the end" - what he feels or does "in the end" - etc. i can't figure out what the heck else is going on other than them still crawling thru their tunnels - and us still just laying there in the bushes waiting to see what crawls out of the hole-
hope your day is okay. as usual, good luck and hang on. we sure do have alot of time and effort & gut invested in this stupid mlc junk. oh well huh?
nothin exciting and better to be doing just yet- but in the end..... da da dummmmmmmm..... who knows rite??? (not dead yet)
