With all your support, I gathered my courage and instead of waiting for him to come upstairs for the talk. I went downstairs to the basement, sat down on the couch and basically waited.
He saw me and said that he was too tired to watch a movie (a movie that he had rented two days ago- which is someong that i did not know)or anything else. I said that's fine, no worries. So he continued to watch football and making comments here and there aout the game. During commercials, he would ask questions like: have you talked to your mom, how is she....how is our niece...oh maybe I should talk to her ( going through teenagers stuff right now) ...., oh can you send me the paperwork for the gym....etc.... An hour goes by, still nothing...half time comes up, so I told myself, ok get ready....
He turns to me and says, well I am really tired right now, so I would like to sleep now. So I got up and said goodnight and left the basement. I guess he changed his mind about the talk. Db says not to start R talk, so I did not. I wish I knew what H is thinking.....
This morning, he had to go and bring the car to the shop because of a flat tire and said he was coming back. He never came back. I called him, he did not answer. So I sent him a text saying: was just calling to find out if you needed to be picked up. So far no answer.
I am telling myself not to have any expectations. It is really hard, but I am proud that I had the guts to go downstairs and be patient.
Thank you lovethehub for your input about counselling, never thought of the fact that he could be pretending in counselling. So I will not invite him to come anymore unless he ask. And I will not say that what he has done so far is not enough... I am gonna work towards going back to work. A week from Tuesday is my dr appoint., ( she had given me three weeks). Cause it was just so hard dealing with situation, kids, work. I could not focus, could not sleep etc...
I try to get out everyday, right now I am at Starbucks.
Me 37 H 37 D9 D6 M9/ T12 ILYBINILWY 05/2013 Asked to S 06/13 Said he wants to S for sure 08/13 Said that he's looking for a place (Sept 17/13) No ring on his finger (Sept 19/13)
