Mtn, if you really stunk at this you never would have made it this far. We all make mistakes now and then. Any one action is not going to make or break your M.
Anyway, MLC is about HER, not YOU. You can't fix her. I know you already know this.
Get back on track and don't fret mistakes in the past.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl