Still hanging around a bit here and there. Life continues to be busy and full, and that's a very good thing
Thanks WH, rH, and Gal - I am always thankful for my cheering section helping me along
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So, last weekend was my birthday...
It was a big one too. 40. Haven't noticed any big difference so far
I had come up with this idea a few weeks before my birthday that I was going to ask H to do something with me. At this point I thought, what the hell? If he says no, then he says no. But I felt l would regret not asking.
Ends up, he asked me to do something! First, he asked me if I wanted a party. (Which I didn't) I told him that I wanted to go to a local outdoor adventure center, and he was fine with it.
As the day drew closer, the weather forecast did not look good. So after debating what I should do, I told him I would take a raincheck on the adventure center and do dinner and a movie instead.
My birthday was a mixture of good and bad. Would you expect anything less? Lol!
The Good: ~ H and boys took me out to breakfast ~ H surprised me with a cake - he's never bought me a cake since I've known him! ~ H made an effort to look good - got dressed up, shaved, put on cologne ~ dinner was really nice. We went to a restaurant that is a special occasion place for us. H seemed relaxed, only texted a few times, and we had good conversation
The Bad: ~ out of control texting during the day before our date.At times, I couldn't even get his attention he was so focused on the damn phone! ~ I did not get a card or gift from the boys. Disappointing. ~ he seemed a little awkward at the movie. Fidgety, like he didn't know what to do with himself
Considering the last time we went out on a date was December 2011, I think it went pretty darn good.
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H comes up to bed every night now. Sometimes as early as 11:00, sometimes as late as 3:00. There have been a few times where I think he saw her, and then did not come up. This has become the exception though.
He really seems to enjoy the weekends when the kids come into the bedroom. He has also been calling it "our bedroom" consistently instead of "your bedroom".
Baby steps, baby steps...
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I found an interesting thing on my work laptop the other week.
H borrowed it awhile ago, and must have paid our cell phone bill online. I think h didn't realize that in the documents folder was a copy of our phone logs.
Very interesting, my friends.
She definitely calls him more. Their conversations are usually pretty short. Even when I was away at the beach or my spa trip, they really didn't talk that much.
A few days after I came home from my trip, I saw that they had a brief phone call, then he called three different hotels for a city a few hours away. This is a place I know he has taken her before, has used fishing and golf trips as alibis.
He had asked about going away there for a golfing trip while we were on our family vacation. He ended up not going.
Even though I knew they talked, it still hurt to see the hard evidence. On the other hand, never know when this may come in handy down the line...
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I'm frustrated because I feel the A is on it's last legs, have felt it for awhile now. It's just taking so damn long to end!
I'm guessing that just as I feel my H inching closer to me, she feels him pulling away. At this point, I think the changes in him are pretty noticeable.
We went to a family function yesterday, one that which H didn't go to last year because he didn't feel like it.
He acted normal, social. Was attentive with the boys.
Then... A ton of texting after we got home. Today, he supposedly went golfing with a buddy, then back to his house to watch football.
I don't know. Sometimes I just get a vibe about things. My vibe says he saw her.
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I'm looking forward to fall, always love the change in seasons.
Summer was big for us, I really saw a lot of movement from H during that time. I also felt a lot of growth from me as well.
I love this time of year, and look forward to enjoying all the fall holidays with my boys.
Keep popping that popcorn folks!
Sorry for the super long post. Thanks for reading along
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
