Thank you Cadet! I hate to act like a dunce, but help me understand what you mean. I feel like I have done all I can short of filing for separation. If I were to truly "let go" to me it would mean moving on and finding someone else. Does that make sense?

I want it to be clear to me what you mean. Us mountain boys at too bright. Lol

M - 42
W- 37
S's - 9,6
M-12
T-14
FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011
ILYBNILWY - march '12
FIL - died jan '13
W Moved out week later