I'm tired today. School started back and the routine has already worn me down. The addition of homework leaves no time to catch my breath. I cried a minute ago for the first time in over a month.
I ran the numbers today, and it appears we'll be struggling financially before the end of the year. I'm not sure what to do other than explain it to my wife and see if she can cut back on expenses. Keeping up two places, and the price of two years worth of fun has taken its toll. Eventually, I'll have to start dumping stocks and property to get cash.
Good grief what a mess.
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
I ran the numbers today, and it appears we'll be struggling financially before the end of the year. I'm not sure what to do other than explain it to my wife and see if she can cut back on expenses. Keeping up two places, and the price of two years worth of fun has taken its toll. Eventually, I'll have to start dumping stocks and property to get cash.
Good grief what a mess.
Mtmn, school started here too. Yes, adds a level of hectic that didn't exist during the summer months.
Do you have a budget with the W? Does she work? Seems to me, it is time for you to make a budget and show her the expenses and talk about the finances. Doesn't mean it will change anything, but then you can transition to "here's your money and that's it" type of approach and let her live with her choices and within her budget.
She does work and the mortgage still comes out of hers. I mentioned to her that we were spending to much. Her response was the she thought that might happen. I told her we need to watch our spending. No response.
She's been extremely ill the last few days. She has a trip planned in another week for a few days. I suspect it's to meet someone. Maybe she frustrated it can't get here soon enough; who knows.
We've had two conversations were she said something like, "that's because you love me." Once because she asked how she looked and I said great, the other was her asking if I'd get her a drink at the high school football game. It strikes me that she's thinking she's not worthy, but I do it in a manner similar to a parent. Oh we'll, she knows where I stand.
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
Good Morning. I know you're awake. I talked to God this morning. It had been a while. He told me to text you and apologize. I am very sorry for how I've hurt you. I don't hate you. Truly I don't. And I do still love you, but I'm not coming home. I don't know what the future holds for us. He didn't tell me that yet. I have to do what I'm doing right now. He understands and I can assure you that He is using me to share His love with others. He's kind of a smart dude like that. Lol. I'm not sure what He wants you to learn from this, but I think one thing is that you can't control everything. You have to learn how to let go and give Him control. He's gonna do whatever He wants with us anyway. It's easier to accept it than to fight it. So stop worrying about us. Stop worrying about our finances. Stop worrying in general. Put it in his hands and use this time to change and grow. Don't wait for me. Have fun. Enjoy life. Open doors. Make new friendships. Live in the present like it's your last day on Earth, because it could be! Whatever happens with us will be ok. He will make it ok. I trust Him. That's all. Peace out. Deuces
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
wow! Talk about acting like a teenager. But to sign a text like that with peace out - is just so obnoxious.
My STBX has also told me the same words "I dont hate you. Truly I don't". I always think its a strange thing to say. Why should they hate us, we are not jerks?? She is a teenager. She wants to continue to act like a teenager.
i know how devestating reading a text like that is and nothing I say will be able to take away the sting and the pain.
Write a gratitude list. You have so much to be thankful for. Two wonderful kids that are healthy. Financially although things are tight you are comfortable enough to actually own stocks.
Are you on Facebook?
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
Good Morning. I know you're awake. I talked to God this morning. It had been a while. He told me to text you and apologize. I am very sorry for how I've hurt you. I don't hate you. Truly I don't. And I do still love you, but I'm not coming home. I don't know what the future holds for us. He didn't tell me that yet. I have to do what I'm doing right now. He understands and I can assure you that He is using me to share His love with others. He's kind of a smart dude like that. Lol. I'm not sure what He wants you to learn from this, but I think one thing is that you can't control everything. You have to learn how to let go and give Him control. He's gonna do whatever He wants with us anyway. It's easier to accept it than to fight it. So stop worrying about us. Stop worrying about our finances. Stop worrying in general. Put it in his hands and use this time to change and grow. Don't wait for me. Have fun. Enjoy life. Open doors. Make new friendships. Live in the present like it's your last day on Earth, because it could be! Whatever happens with us will be ok. He will make it ok. I trust Him. That's all. Peace out. Deuces
Thank you Cadet! I hate to act like a dunce, but help me understand what you mean. I feel like I have done all I can short of filing for separation. If I were to truly "let go" to me it would mean moving on and finding someone else. Does that make sense?
I want it to be clear to me what you mean. Us mountain boys at too bright. Lol
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
