The man I'm married to right now (or should I say separated from) is not the same man I married in 1997. Once in a while I get a glimpse of that man so I know he's still in there but right now he's not able to get out.
Right after BD I used to see my "old wife" fairly regularly. I would see her smiling at me with that "I love you so much" look in her eyes, then she would catch herself and her whole look and attitude would change to "ice queen" in an instant. It was the craziest thing. Once she was sleeping with S10 (S9 at the time) and I went in and was tickling him and playing with him to wake him up and W looked at me with that warm smile on her face I had seen so many times before BD. She reached over to caress my arm and right before she touched me, -snap- she remembered and quickly retreated into the castle. There were other slips, calling my "honey" or "babe" out of habit, etc. Anyway, those moments became fewer and fewer as the months went on until they completely disappeared. I never, ever see my old W anymore, she's been completely replaced with the alien now.
