Me- LBS or WAS?

[littleGTO]

bug- Thanks for your questions. They are very valid and thought-provoking.

The answer to the question if I ever thought of leaving my M in past? I resounding NO! Never. I thought (erroneously) that my M are good. Solid. Unbreakable.

So all of this was a shock to me.

Do I really want my M to be over. No. But, I feel like it already is. I don't feel M any more. Don't love my H like I used to. Don't respect him or trust him.

I think all the time about what I should/shouldn't do. Now that things have shifted a bit...H is NC OW and he is spending more time around house and has definitely softened toward him, I feel like I need to just wait and see how I feel in a couple of months.

I am quite sure H is not going to do anything any time soon. Neither am I, so we just keep moving forward...in what direction, I'm not sure.