So, teen drama tonight...son's friends come over, they'd been drinking and ask if S is here. I say no, he is at your place? (down the street). Apparently he left an hour before and it's a five minute walk. I'm a bit panicky, but I text-no answer. Call-it goes straight to message.

I get a text back, "Sorry went for a walk, friend in distress called and I was talking her through some things..."

Mind you, it's pouring rain etc.

So I drive drunk azz (but very polite smile ) friends back, make sure son is back at friend's, talk to son, he is beside himself that he worried me. It's all good.

Text H with small update- "Drunk teens, S17 took off couldn't find him, he went to visit Grandmother's (H's mom) grave, but is all good, will update you tomorrow"

Then I texted- "Sometimes? Doing this on my own in the here and now is really hard" frown "

He texted "I'm sorry"

I just said "So am I. I'll talk to you tomorrow"

Ugh. Not my intent to lay a guilt trip on the man, but if I have to do this parenting thing and feel the sheer momentary terror of not knowing where S is, then he gets to know as well. Pointe finale.